Jellyfish

jellyfish
August 12 2005 at 10:00 AM sespyOHYEAH

i breeze past
row houses and student
apartments
singing kings of leon in a
vintage dress

maybe ill find you typing quietly
at the library
like i did before

the day before the night before
the morning
where your sober eyes drew away from me
like i was made of splinters

darkness merges us

its 2 favorite softest things
and i find my old self
that believed in something

now im just getting things done

a cute robotic sister
tired of looking around and waiting
for something that surely must be coming
but cant be seen

munching on those old memories
beautiful and toxic
that burn my stomach

like your eyes that melt me
a thousand emotions at once
a tribunal of jellyfish
with stinging fingers

Leaves and Sticks

leaves and sticks
July 20 2005 at 4:21 PM sespy

the ant is waving his arms up and down as fast as he
can anybody see
him ?

hes standing where the water is rushing its coming
fast i wave my arms but no one sees
me

hes screaming his loudest ant scream and its echoing
to absolutely no one
no one.

the water rushes toward me, hopelessly swimming out
to no one

and our bodies wash up with leaves
and sticks

Bed Like Africa

bed like africa
July 20 2005 at 4:15 PM sespyWHAT

tigers breathing
heaving
ribs in and out like ours
biting like you
fucker
biting me
ow

grasses waving
the wind
blows goodbye
goodbye self respect
hope
goodbye
take what you can get
biting
ow

sweating
its hot
dust and ashes
of fire
and all the dead
sweating and tangling
my hair
sticky
turns to ashes

falling
so easily
the tree is old
my heart is tired
it falls
settles
on the ground
to become food

the dust rises up
in the heat
and i am torn apart
to nothing

full in your belly
you saunter away
licking lips and
sharp teeth
for pieces of me

10 Seasons

10 seasons
July 20 2005 at 3:57 PM sespeeee

all the heat
traps all the crap in my car
cuz im melting
and i just cant clean it out

ive been lugging my suitcase around all summer.

thank goodness.

i wouldve for sure died here.

all the ghosts of us
haunt all the places i want to go

and poke me idly with their wretched fingers
every 5 minutes to make me think of
your smile
and the tears that washed it away

soon
the crunching of the leaves and sadness
of the falling
will hopefully heal me somehow

and maybe by winter i wont remember how
we snuggled in your coat
or drove recklessly through the ice
laughing



or maybe ill need 10 seasons

Sugarplums

sugarplums
December 24 2004 at 12:32 AM sespy!

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flying through the crisp
pre cristmas evening
(after seeming lost )
the city lights
reassured me and i was glad
for its electric arms

you wear it well
made me shake my fist
in excitement

thinking of you
( once again )
and your smooth
eyes and
true blue
smile.

honest in your silent
awe
enveloping me

cigarettes in bed
so sexy
just resting with a smile
when i get up to rearrange something
( i think is important )

just a gold heart
i cannot break
( but shine )

id love to watch
stupid cartoons
( with you in my arms )

hopes shooting dangerously
high
without a net
sugarplums dancing wildly
beneath my nappiness

i drive closer to home
and kitten

sickeningly yearning
and setting myself up
for another heartbreak

(just to keep my nights warm )

my little mess
blown to pieces
in an instant

by anyone that can fool me

Welcome to 2005

I was in college. I was writing poems. Allow me to introduce you to some of them.

Sandstar

such luxuries,
your hands have been
and soft looks so oft
from blue eyes like sky aloft

such banquets, your lips
to have let me feast upon
such softness as could slow me
and cause me look again

but still i shiver and look away
not feeling your strength, still
I. a faint willow blowing off
slow and silly in the evenings

pushing like tide
cursing come up again

counting shells
not being able
to choose

4/10/11