Well It's Because

well its because
September 23 2005 at 1:09 AM sespy

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well its because my mom
used to say ready
freddie
when we were going
someplace

because your head smells like
my dads and even though
your second toe is longer
i dont think theyre gross

i even sortof like them.

but now i cant even remember your laugh
because i was raped when i was 14

and my mom had extra rage

its because i caught you
like a lightning bug
and didnt expect you to be there
waiting patiently in the jar

didnt feel like i deserved it.

i wouldve had an awesome
double italian last name

with 8 proud syllables
( hyphenated )

but now i only see your face when i sleep
and tonight i cant

well i guess its because i love you


and isnt that a shitty way to end ?

i feel so alone until
i hear you
buzzing around the porch light
uncertain

( but aching )