My Deepest Part

August 28 2005 at 7:44 PM sespy
my deepest part:

all those times
their strong hands
took what they wanted
ignoring my innocence

all those times
mother
used unkind terms
(not daughter)

all the tricks
and laughter
melt me
when i look into your beautiful
eyes

can you see how mine are sad ?
everything i know
about myself
gets confused sometimes
with what ive been trained
to feel
like.

like my brown
could never deserve such
vast blue

insecurities suffocate
my wit
i falter before i step
trying hard to begin
perfectly

my body ravaged
of respect
washed a million times
still
covered in sin

that soaks through
to my deepest part

you could never want me
if you knew